ASSYADIKA JALIL

When I dream
I dream out my fears
Hoping that reality is near
So I can lure it to my lair
Then feed on my needs as need be

So when I dream
I dream about fighting the freezing cold with fire
I dream about aiming higher to grasp my desires
I dream of ways to inspire myself
By sweetly toiling out till I tire
Many a dream of mine are unwritten songs
To which I've known the words all along
Often I dream of places where I should belong

When I dream
I dream about the impossible
And how to enable it
Without the obvious obstacles
It’s only then I realize that a dream is capable
Of becoming true for either me or you
Yet the reality of it all is
Then a dream is no longer a dream!

JURAIMI JUMAT

Person with big heart and forgiving nature. he needs to check his temper tho. loving and compassionate at his best. someone you can rely on and have your back.

im at the corner of my room, thinking whether itz still possible tt ol' skool love still exists. The type where u love sumone so sincerely, that u dun need anythynk else, literally... Itz just enuf with ur other half and u can do anythynk, if u have just each other. I thnk ive been too ambitious to have tt work for me, but isnt a grl allowed to dream.. Of course there'll be arguments, but arguments like wall colours, socks lying on the floor... Just tt. nuthynk heavy like 3rd parties or finding out who u are... I was so and mebbe still am so blinded by so many things, and things are slwoly pulling their own blankets and leeting me dee so much now. Im feeling as tho a veil has just been raised up from my head.. And the world looks so different, almost cruel and harsh like anythynk and everythnk is a sharp slit of glass. Once upon a time when ur loved one is ur blanket of coomfort, now itz left u bared. And i just realised why ive been wearing this sweater for a whole week now... Coz it smells of him... I just realised tt.. Haha... Wad do u do when sumone isnt the person u thot he was... When the person uve oved is a person tt has ceased to exist? Itz like holding on to a hot iron... U try to hold on to it, but it gets too hot and u just hafter let go even thi u do not wnt to, coz ita so precious.. And then wad if a person uve thot itz all in ur dreams came along in reality? Do u take d risk or do u chance it away.. Mebbe after all, the thing tt uve always wanted has always been within ur graps... And the thung u thot u lve wanted, is not after all wad uve wanted. But, the saddest thing is knowing the person u truly loved dun need u..

..and the feelings of getting a flower... some grls experienced it during their special days, even sweeter as a normal day surprise.. I had it once, special it was, a stalk of white rose... Once, but dear to my heart til now...


I read a letter my grandma wrote back in 1923. Grandpa kept it in his coat but he shoqed once to me, he said boy u might nt understand but a long long time ago, granmaa's daddie din like me none, but i loved ur grandma so... We had this this crazy plan to meet and run away together. Get married in the ferst town we came thru and live forever... but nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead. I found this letter, and this is wad it said...

If u get there before i do, dun give up on me. I'll meet u when my chores are thry, i dunno how long i'll be here, but im not gonna let u down darlyn wait and see and between now n the till i see u agn i'll be loving u. Love, me.

I read these words just before grandma passed away.. Down in the hallways of the church where m n grandpa starts to pray. I noe ive never seen him cry in all my 15 yrs,but as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears...

If u get there before i do... Dun give up on me. I'll meet u when my chores r rthru, i dunno how long i'll be here, but im not gonna let u down, darlyn wait n see and between now n then till i see u agaen i'll be lovin' u...
Love, me...


Itz ok when u dun get wad u asked for, u can always work for it urself... Love is within urself, carry it with u and the world will be alright.