ASSYADIKA JALIL

When I dream
I dream out my fears
Hoping that reality is near
So I can lure it to my lair
Then feed on my needs as need be

So when I dream
I dream about fighting the freezing cold with fire
I dream about aiming higher to grasp my desires
I dream of ways to inspire myself
By sweetly toiling out till I tire
Many a dream of mine are unwritten songs
To which I've known the words all along
Often I dream of places where I should belong

When I dream
I dream about the impossible
And how to enable it
Without the obvious obstacles
It’s only then I realize that a dream is capable
Of becoming true for either me or you
Yet the reality of it all is
Then a dream is no longer a dream!

JURAIMI JUMAT

Person with big heart and forgiving nature. he needs to check his temper tho. loving and compassionate at his best. someone you can rely on and have your back.

ya allah ya tuhanku,
kabulkanla doaku.

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If u mean sumthynk to a person, but that person means everythynk and the world to u.. is it wise? Or do u wait for a person who will take u to mean everythynk to them.


If not, why then am i always trying to run away from it? the only reason i noe is coz he's perfect in my eyes.. but he's loved by just an imperfect person. Ive loadsa imperfections, flaws.. He has it too, but to me, he's like the perfect desire i couldnt fully own.. He has got this amazing eyes n nose n the most beautiful mouth ever, i realise that im not in his league. Too many sniggers and doubts have been thrown to me by ''friends'' but i never ever voice nor took any heed to them. I do embrace all my imperfections and took in my stride, why then could he not accept as for how i am.

There's a truth in the saying, there's always some truth in 'just kidding'.

But as years go by, i pray, for the right path.. If he reallie is for me, then i pray to have bliss happiness in me. A silent stable peace in me whenever im with him. That was verily wad i felt.. Years ago.. I was truly, i swear, happiness just came like that. i felt like ive been given on silver platter sumthynk i couldnt even bring myself to dream of.. Wad else, belonging it.. But he's not an object. He's a real person. just came back knocking at my heart's door just presenting himself like we were meant to be.

But now the prayers've changed... And why do i have a feeling sumthynk is nudging me the other way.. It felt like all those were lightyears years ago.. It felt like i wrote on crisp dry rusting papers.. Those beautiful years. All im left with now, is him minus the angel. He's still brilliant, but only at times when things are well..

could i enjoy the rain, drenching my clothes and jumping and laughing in the rain like ive got no care in the world with him? I couldnt see that nemore. i used to trace his face side profile while he's at rest, but now i realise i dun do that nemore. Itz true what they say, shower ur loved ones with good words.. It can kill sumone. Mebbe we're both murderers in our own bliss. We got too blinded by the light we fought and slay each other to see.

u have these tears from me. But of coz, theyre worthless. uve seen to much of them. But mebbe, i just wish i could have a lil of urs to noe i mean at least sumthynk to u

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a love begged is tragic. But i shall stop.